I found myself thinking back to my freshman year of college, when I coined the…
laying on the floor thinking about stuff
…playlists that I still make today.
If you’ve been there, then you know – dorm rooms weren’t very big. My roommate 202 and I did ended up doing the laying down listening to music thing all the time. The songs I listened to back then are like therapy. Play me some Something Corporate and I’m right back there in my dorm room with the smell of burnt popcorn from down the hall and the sound of various friends yelling up at our window, because we were right above the door to the lobby.
So, I started making a list of those songs. The ones that pretty much summed up that year of life, because for some reason, that’s one of those really vivid years in my memory. I even went back and looked at an old journal and found out that Yes, these songs are those memories, and if you’re ever trying to time travel ala Christopher Reeves, this is what you should listen to.
I didn’t even realize how much the songs resonated in my memory until I re-read various portions of Hook Ups, Let Downs, and the other Nine Inches.
Dean started hanging out in my room a lot more. After dinner, when Nicole went off to rehearsal, he’d come over, eating my food and sneaking in beer. He and I had what I considered a real college friendship. We’d bash W . and contemplate how the Yeah Yeah Yeah’s had saved us from teenage angst.
I lay down on the floor of the dorm room. I had the Yeah Yeah Yeahs playing on repeat, Karen O wailing over and over.
“They don’t love you like I love you…” I whispered along, not able to move, or not wanting to.
Yeah. Karen O was pretty much my best friend in 2005.
The Time Traveling List of Songs that L.A. overplayed in 2005
- Jack’s Mannequin – The Mixed Tape
- Jack’s Mannequin – Bruised
- Matt Nathanson – Angel
- Matt Nathanson – I Saw
- Something Corporate – Walking By
- Something Corporate – Punk Rock Princess
- Death Cab for Cutie – Photobooth
- Lifehouse – You & Me
- Yeah Yeah Yeahs – Modern Romance/Poor Song
- Yeah Yeah Yeahs – Maps
Do you have any memories that are triggered by music? Any songs that just resonate a time or a place or a person for you?
Good Morning, wordpress universe.
I’m actually a wealth of things that have gone down. But some of these happenings are boring, and others are territory I’m not sure I’m willing to go into (see Toast and the rules of readers of the blog.) Therefore. I give you a story to keep you interested in me.
I haven’t dated…really, ever. I went from boyfriend to boyfriend, and high school to college.
I get a call from an old friend. Do you remember him?
He invites me over. I have nothing to lose, and I miss my old friend. So I go.
We’re sitting in Blackbird’s bedroom. It’s a mess, and makes me nostalgic for his old dorm room we used to sit it. He has rickety old office chairs that we’re perched in. Mine is broken and keeps tilting backwards, until Blackbird pulls me over to him by my legs.
“We have been so much closer than this,” he tells me. “This is ridiculous.” He hooks my legs over his lap.
I realize for the first time how nervous I am to be there. Not because it’s Blackbird, and not because of how close his face his getting to mine, but because here I am, alone with a boy…
Blackbird is getting closer to me. I can feel it coming. I can feel the warmth of his breath.
“Hand that to me, would you?” He moves past me and I exhale, loudly. I turn, and realize he’s going for his guitar, which I hand over to him, blushing. He wasn’t going to kiss me.
“I think I remember how this goes,” he says, plucking at the strings. A few notes. A few chords. “Are you going to help me?” He asks me, smiling.
I’m having another flashback to that dorm room. He and I sitting on his loft bed. Him laying down with his guitar, head resting on my lap. I remember that he can’t really sing.
“Blackbird, singing in the dead of night,” my voice cracks. “Take these broken wings and learn to fly.”
Blackbird has stopped playing. He’s just watching me.
“All your life,” I continue. He’s getting closer again. “You were only waiting for this moment to-”
And then, Blackbird kissed me.